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♥ Friday, January 05, 2007 ♥

12:14:00 PM

a brand new year

the year have passed and it's 2oo7 once again. 2oo6 has been a happy, sad and stressful year for me. getting to sit for the o levels results, getting into my ~~first relationship~~, making new friends, having to commit myself to my ex classmates, blah blah.

had ~~cried~~, shouted, prayed on so much things which i dun remember it now. but it's okie. things are better now. though i can still sense the uncleared air surrounding my work place. but i guess things will always be like this. no matter where i'm, there's bound to b stress. probably it's because i've high expectations on ppl, i expect them to b nice to me jus because i'm good to them. tt's y i can get so depressed n let down when things didnt turn out as wad i think it'll be.

i'm so goanna miss sch! sch term has started and it's like i dun have to go back sch, wearing tt ugly green uniform as wad we called it. having mr neo to say 'morning colleagues, tampinesians. all look up listen up' and having me to say look at the sky? hees.

i miss having to see mr lai early morning each day to mark atttendance. having to find jus one person if he fails to mark one. having to see him each day seems to be like very normal thing. but now not seeing him like very wierd.

i miss having mr shahril to joke w our class during morning assembly and taking abt mr neo or mr hafiz will definately make us laugh pretty badly. seeing him disturbing our class boys are always funny..

i miss having mr lai to tell me to keep quiet when i fail to maintain silence throughout the morning assembly. having to do the shoku (sp?) on every tuesday after reading my fave section of the newspaper.. IN. super nice.

i miss sec 2's journal section.. on every fri where i pour out all my saddness all in words to mrs choon. having to look forward to it on every thurs and see wad's the reply was for last week's entry.

i miss looking over to 2T1 and look at mr owyong, one of the bestest PE teacher i've. then it seems our gaze always meet and tt we will smile at each other. kinda feeling wierd if it was monday, wednesday or friday cuz it'l b the co-form and tt's miss wong there marking attendance. then it will feel wierd.

i miss disturbing the guys early in the morning.. be it andrew, jun wei, chiben, fan ye........

i miss climbing the long flight of stairs to my classroom.. block G ext fourth floor. the best classroom ever. having to say 'can jian fei already la. climb everyday'. having chiben to pull on my bag as we played eachday.

i miss the corridor outside my class where we had fun. forever trying to make jonathan fall down, kneeling on the floor.

i miss eating food, sweets and drinking packet drinks in class and having mr lai to clean our classroom as he nagged each day telling us to keep the class clean.

i miss having mdm shi to tell me and chinhui to keep quiet during chinese class cuz we simply cant stop talking.. i miss making fun of her chinesse slang(:

i miss the dirty sch canteen where it is always busy during all our breaks. having a crowd table w like so many ppl. but tt's the time when we're always happy, making jokes. be it with other classmates or our own. it's always like fun and filled with jokes.

i miss jumping queue at stall 1o with conan and his bunch of friends, seeing who'll get their food first.

i miss the food at the mixed veg stall, and the one beside the chicken rice.. i miss the stall vendors and the uncle seeing fruits..

i miss the relief teachers who came into the class and complained that we were noisy to mr lai.

i miss mdm ho's period and we always make her angry and having her to shout thru the mike when she;s already very loud without the mike:P i miss wasting time helping ho to record the marks during her lessons and tt i dun have to listen to her class. i miss talking to chinhui in class and ignoring mdm ho's teaching.

i miss mdm yasmin's lesson when she tells us a story and we'll b so engross listening to it and waste our usual class time.

i miss mrs abbas ultra loud class. when no one ever get luck in sleeping cuz she talks suddenly very loudly and no one can ever sleep. then, it's almost impossible even to listen to the person beside u if she starts talking. in addition, her lessons are always interesting. so it's still okie la. and i miss calling her mother. i miss her shooting at chiben. and ben has never make her speechless. hahhah!

i miss mdm lim's attempt to teach our class phyiscs and making us understand the concert on it. i miss lab sessions when me and chua usually didnt do our experiment properly and having ahmad n ben to teach us.

i miss mr bernard chew lesson. and how he describe the term 'viscous'. it was like super disgusting la. i guess if my memory didnt fail me, i'd definately remember wad he says.

i miss sleeping in ms rafidah lesson. as it was too bored. after listening to the defination of 'bed rock' was rock in the river bed, i give up already.

i miss disturbing mdm sim.. calling her as my beloved one.

i miss the lessons when mdm phua is teaching. having the ability to slack n talk. being the only person who doesnt have to listen to her lessons(:

i miss my sec 1 form teacher.. mr ho. who always tried his best to teach my class, 1e5.. yet none of us listens to wad he's tryin to teach us.. b it in cme or in dnt lessons. how we disturb him.. n how we laugh at his not-at-all-good england.

i miss cooking during my sec one and sec two.. having partners like fiona and benjamin kok. life's great w benkok cooking for me. having fio to shriek but it's fun times spent w her..

i miss entering the d&t workshops. complaining how lok cok the things are inside.. oh wells, my sch is such a old building.. but i dun miss any of the machinaries there! i hate doing them.. so end up my whole work piece is not done by me.. is by lots of guys in my class. cant rmb who it was.. but i think ben kok did help me.

i miss doing project work w my classmates. cuz it's either having a confict or it'll b a better bonding w friends. i like the second one more.. hahhas. i miss the IPW project w yutian, derick n shawn. it's a long project. but it turned out very well.

i miss entering the sch ground to help the math teachers set up the music n art thing programme of cakewalk. it was tiring but, i enjoyed myself.

i miss disturbing andrew, chiben in lessons.

i miss chinhui n all her jokes. i miss pouring my unfairness to chinhui.

i miss chiben n ahmad when i think abt physics pract lessons.

i miss playing netball during ms joanna lessons.

i miss looking at chua n simin fight in class.

i miss cindy.

i miss having fun w jonathan, junwei.

oh sighs. i miss LOTS of things.

things are like so complicated now.
everything seems to b very complicated nowadays.
so who's the true backstabber now?

i dun wanna think.
i dun wanna ask.
i dun wanna know.

the truth hurts.